"Are We Meant To Be?" {Jimin FF} - Chapter 34~
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Chapter 34~
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{edited by me}
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{Author's Note: Before we start with the Chapter click the Music Note To Listen to My Playlist For the FF. I would suggest listening to it in Random shuffle. Enjoyπ}
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Jimin’s POV
I looked at Y/N as she paced around the room while I leaned against the door frame of her room looking at her move around.
Y/N: Which one should I wear…This one or….This one?
She asked as she showed me two outfits. I knew she would look good in both. In my eyes, no matter what she wears, she will look perfect.
Jimin: For the party?
I asked and she shook her head while still holding the two outfits in front of me.
Y/N: We have somewhere else to go before the party…
She beamed and I raised my brow in confusion.
Jimin: And where might that be?
Y/N: Hush! It’s a surprise…you will know soon.
She smiled and chose an outfit herself before rushing into the bathroom and I chuckled while shaking my head.
She seems more excited for my birthday than I have ever been. My birthday is the same every year. There is a party, a new girl to play with, my house is full of drunk youngsters, the music is loud, the night is wild and by the time the next day comes, the whole place is trashed. This cycle tends to repeat year after year so I never felt any sort of excitement for my birthday. But this time Y/N is there and I am a hundred percent sure that there will be some change in plans if not more. I can see how hard she has worked on this and I am sure I will love it just because she did it. Everything she does means a lot to me.
I bring my wrist to my eye level as I look at the bracelet she gave me last night with a smile. It is the most precious present that I have ever received and what makes it even more special is that we will always be reminded of each other through this. Every time I look at my wrist and then at hers, it only gets clearer how our destiny together has started to become inevitable. I never thought that I would believe in this destiny sh*t but I guess that I have changed and that too for the better. She makes me want to be good for her…only for her.
Y/N: What are you thinking about?
She asked as she walked out of the bathroom wearing the dress making her look flawless. She walked to the dressing table as I saw her putting her earrings on while focusing on her reflection.
Jimin: Nothing Important…
I shrugged and she nodded as she wore her watch and I saw her bracelet on the opposite wrist.
Y/N: I am driving...
She said as she dangled the keys in front of me before walking out of the room and I laughed.
We both got into the car as Y/N started to drive checking the side view mirror every once in a while.
Y/N: We still have an hour till the party starts so I got our clothes so that we can change later.
She said and I nodded while looking at her side profile. The way her face was glowing from the light of the setting sun made her look angelic. Dammit, what has she done to me?
I looked away, staring out of the window as I ran my fingers through my hair. Y/N stopped at a Traffic light as she tapped her fingers on the steering wheel.
Y/N: Can you believe that you are twenty three? I mean did you have any wishes or hopes?
She asked as she looked at me and I chuckled.
Jimin: I suppose not…what is there to hope for?
Y/N: There is a lot more than you think to hope for…like a healthy life, a good year or…. finding the love of your life.
She said the last one in a whisper which confused me as I glanced back at her. She tapped her fingers on the steering wheel impatiently as I saw her eyes focused on the traffic light.
Jimin: Yeah…maybe you are right. And maybe I have found the love of my life.
I said and saw that she had stopped tapping her fingers on the steering wheel and now she was actually gripping onto it making her knuckles turn white.
Y/N: R-Really?
She stuttered and I smirked. Was this affecting her? But why? Does she perhaps feel the same or is it something else. I don’t know but either way it’s entertaining as hell. I decided to keep on playing along with it.
Jimin: Oh yeah. She is the most beautiful girl I have ever seen. She is like a true angel.
Y/N: But are you sure..? I mean some girls can be snakes behind the pretty face. Their faces are just bags of makeup and tons of facial reconstructions.
She said and I chuckled at her choice of words. I could see her grip on the steering wheel getting tighter and the expression on her face was twisted with bitterness.
Jimin: She is truly beautiful and amazing, Autumn.
Y/N: Who is this girl anyways…
She asked through gritted teeth and I smirked. Doing this to Y/N is my new favourite hobby now. This is much more entertaining than I expected it to be. The light turned green as She pressed the accelerator and the car started to move.
Jimin: I will tell you but later. Right now focus on driving, I don’t want to have my death anniversary and birthday on the same day.
I laughed and she rolled her eyes as she took a turn turning to the street where she lives.
Jimin: Why are we here?
Y/N: You don’t answer my questions, I shouldn’t be obligated to answer yours.
She rolled her eyes playfully and I laughed.
Jimin: TouchΓ©.
Y/N: You will find out why we are here in a few minutes. Just have patience.
She said as she parked the car in front of her house before removing her seatbelt and walking away from the car as I followed her.
Entering her house, she stood in front of the painting which led to the secret hallway. She pulled out a blind fold from her bag and I raised a brow.
Jimin: What’s That for? Are you trying to abduct me and sell me for money?
I said and she laughed while rolling her eyes.
Y/N: If I had to abduct you, I would’ve made sure you were unconscious first before I placed a blindfold on your eyes dummy.
My eyes widened and she laughed harder looking at me. Before I could say anything, she placed the blindfold in front of my eyes and tied it from the back. I tried to remove it but she held both my hands in hers and I groaned.
Jimin: Yah!
Y/N: Keep quiet otherwise you won’t get your surprise…rather, I will tie you up and leave you here all alone.
I huffed as she laughed once again and it was the most beautiful sound that I had ever heard. I heard a few clicks and she pulled my hands dragging me somewhere. She stopped as I heard a few jingles of keys as a creaking sound was heard.
Y/N: Okay keep on walking. And…stop.
She said and I halted in my steps as I heard her shuffle behind me before untying my blindfold. I opened my eyes and saw darkness.
Jimin: So…
I heard a clicking sound as the whole room illuminated and My eyes widened at the sight in front of me.
Y/N: So…what do you think?
She asked as I stood there in shock. It was the same room she brought me to when it was my first time visiting the secret hallway. The memory room. In front of me were the same string lights but these ones had all the pictures of us together. In the middle it said, ‘ My ChimChim and I♡︎’ and the way she called me hers made my heart skip a beat.
The pictures were like a trip down memory lane. A picture of us at the Ice cream parlour together, a picture of us when we went for star gazing for the first time, the time we went to the orphanage, and many more which brought back so many memories.
Time has gone by so fast that I didn’t even realise that it has been 5 months since we first met. A picture catches my eye as I move closer to it. It’s the one at Jade’s birthday party, we both are standing side by side as she was side hugging me. I don’t Remember when that was took or who took it but I was certain that she was drunk and I was trying to keep her steady. The time she kissed me came to my mind and I wished that I had it captured on camera so that the moment could last longer.
Y/N: So…?
I snapped out of my crazy thoughts when I heard my autumn’s voice. I moved back looking at Y/N and smiled.
Jimin: I love it…really.
Y/N: Thank god! It took me the whole of yesterday to prepare this!
She sighed in relief and I smiled at her.
Jimin: So That is why you came here yesterday…?
Y/N: You got that right.
My eyes caught a picture fallen on the ground and my brows knitted together. I bent down and grabbed that picture as my heart clenched looking at it. It was a picture of Y/N with whom I am supposing is BamBam. Y/N was kissing his cheek jumping onto his back as he laughed. Y/N snatched the picture from my hand in a hurry and I looked up at her whose face was rather panicked. That’s when realisation washed over me as I looked around the room to see that the wall with pictures of Y/N and BamBam is missing.
Jimin: You replaced your ex’s wall with mine didn’t you?
She remained silent as I saw her walking away from me and keeping the Polaroid in a box which was kept in the corner of the room.
Jimin: Answer Me Y/N.
I said a bit louder and she looked at me blankly.
Y/N: I was going to take it down anyways, leave it be Jimin.
She said flatly and walked out of the room without a word. I ran my fingers through my hair in frustration. I sighed as I ran out behind her. I closed the door as I saw the door of one of the rooms which I had never been to before , already open. I walked into the room and smiled as I saw Y/N sitting on a chair in the room looking out of the window. The room was filled with pictures of me and Y/N once again. But these pictures were much bigger and each picture had something written on the bottom of it. As I reached closer to Y/N the pictures changed and this time it was a picture of her and BamBam.
It said, “My love” with a small heart at the corner and my heart clenched at the sight. I shook myself out of my trance as I walked to her.
I put my hands on both her shoulders but she remained motionless.
Jimin: Y/N…
I said but she remained silent and I sighed. Why did I have to bring it up and ruin everything.
Jimin: What you Did was really sweet…and I loved it.
I said and she glanced at me once and nodded before looking out the window once again.
Y/N: Close the curtains.
She said and I furrowed my brows. I decided not to question her as I did what she said and saw that she was holding a remote in her hand. She patted the chair beside her as I sat down there.
She took a deep breath as she pressed a button on the remote and suddenly the room was illuminated by light coming from the ceiling.
Y/N: Look up…
She said and I looked up with amazement. The whole galaxy was on the ceiling. She looked at the ceiling with me and I smiled.
Y/N: That forms a heart…
She said pointing at a bunch of stars which projected on the ceiling.
Jimin: And What does that heart mean to you?
I asked and her eyes met mine and I lost myself in her orbs once again. She grabbed both of my hands as she looked at me with a weak smile.
Y/N: It means many things. Some things that I can’t even explain. It tells me how much I love-
She stopped and her eyes widened.
Jimin: Who?
I asked and she pulled her hand away.
Y/N: Uhm..how much I love..uhm…PUPPIES!
She said and I rolled my eyes as she laughed awkwardly.
Jimin: You are a terrible liar you know.
Y/N: I-
Jimin: Just tell me…
She sighed as I saw her looking somewhat nervous and my heart was beating with anticipation and a bit of fear. If the answer is not what I want it to be I know that I will be most likely be shattered. I held her hands once again as I gave them a light squeeze and she looked at me.
Y/N: I- Uhm... H-How much I-I love y-
She stopped as her phone started to ring and I groaned seeing her heave a sigh of relief.
The name ‘Jacob The DumDum’ flashed on the screen and I laughed at her choice of words.
Y/N: Hey.
She said into the phone as I saw her turning the phone to speaker.
Jacob: When are you guys getting here...the party is about to start and if Jimin isn’t their then the party won’t have a damn purpose.
He said and Y/N laughed.
Y/N: We are coming. Jeez you literally have no patience. Where is Scar?
Jacob: With me...
He said and Y/N smiled.
Y/N: Okay then. I don’t want to interrupt the both of you so all I will say is that we will be there in 30 minutes or less. See you at the party DumDum.
Jacob: See you there sugarplum.
The call ended as Y/N looked at me and before I could question her further she stood up.
Y/N: Okay let’s go...Time for the party!
She ran out of the room before I could interrogate her further. I sighed, it wasn’t important anyways, because it can only cause more pain. I got up and took a look around one last time before switching the lights off and walking out of the room.
I saw Y/N leaning against the door with the clothes in hands and when she saw me, she handed me my clothes.
Y/N: Here. I am gonna go change too. Scarlett got me this outfit so I have no idea what kind of outfit this is.
She said and I smirked.
Jimin: I can’t wait to find out.
I bit my lip while smirking and she made a sour expression as a pout formed on her lips.
Y/N: Aish Pervert....
She said and I laughed making her pout more. She flipped her hair and walked away from me, out of the secret hallway and I followed behind her still laughing.
Y/N: I will change in my room, you can change in the guest room. Okay ?
She asked and I nodded as I saw her walk up the stairs.
I walked into the guest room as I closed the door behind me.
I walked into the bathroom as I changed my clothes quickly and then ran my fingers through my hair looking into the mirror. I hope that this year my birthday will be different...I don’t want Y/N to see what kind of parties I used to have. I know that she won’t be comfortable at parties like those and I know that if anyone stared at her for more than 10 seconds, I would be beating their drunken f**king ass.
I looked at myself for the last time in the mirror and smirked.
Jimin: Wow I never thought I could be possessive of something I never had. Damn it my brain is a f**king mess.
I cursed as I walked out of the bathroom and into the room. I kept my other clothes on the dresser so that I could take them sometime later. As I put them there, I notice a small journal peeking out of one of the drawers of the dressers.
This reminded me of when Jacob showed us one of Y/N’s high School journals... is this one of them too? I know that I am not supposed to sneak around but my curiosity was getting the best of me.
I muttered a quick sorry as I slid the journal out of the drawer and looking at the cover. The cover was a picture of a dreamcatcher which was painted in gold on top of the cover. I traced the shape as I hesitantly opened the journal, slowly flipping through the pages. Every page had a different heading and each page was written with a different colour.
My eyes stopped at a page as I read the heading.
‘Pain in Love’
‘Everyone defines love in a different way. Some take it as fate while some take it as a compromise between two lovers to achieve a happy life. In my case, it’s both.
Staying 2 years with BamBam was difficult because I thought that I was tied by the string of fate with him and I had to do everything I could not to lose him. I compromised again and again, gave him various chances with a hope that when fate allows us to be happy, we will forever be happy and no soul would be able to ruin our happiness. But that’s where I was mistaken.
Maybe if I left him the first time he slapped me, both of us would’ve been happy today. Living a better and happier life. But I had hope, having Hope was my biggest mistake.
My misconception and false hope only ruined our lives. His words which were once filled with love were now laced with hatred.
Was this even love? Or another misconception? A misconception caused by the vulnerability of the situation in which we crossed paths. He had come into my life when I was weak and he took my weak moment as his strong one. When he came into my life, he was the only one who understood me, Only one who took my side against my father except my mom. I started to trust him...more than I trusted myself and that made me lean on him. I suppose when he confessed to me, I felt obligated to think that I loved him too or rather my brain tricked me in believing so because of all the things he had done for me.
Maybe it wasn’t love after all...’
I looked at the pages with wide eyes as I reach the last words. She didn’t love him...?
My heart was beating fast as I felt really happy all of a sudden though I shouldn’t but I couldn’t help it either. Maybe this was a sign...
I flipped through a few more pages as I stopped at one heading.
‘Scarlett’s Neighbour’
‘Scarlett kept on telling me how her new neighbour is a jerk. But I met him today and he didn’t seem that bad to be very honest. He seemed rather nice. I bumped into him twice and he wasn’t rude or an a*sh*le from what I saw.
What was his name again... Yeah... Park Jimin. He has a pretty name hehe. He was good looking too, it was like he was the main lead in a K-Drama or something. I just hope Scarlett is not troubled by the loud music again. I told him so maybe he will listen right? I hope he does.
I don’t even think I will meet him again because of Scarlett’s overprotectiveness. Well, maybe that is something that is in fate’s hands, if we are meant to meet again then we will.’
I smiled as I read through the page. Was that what she thought about me when we first met? Reading this Journal is like taking a look into her sweet and naΓ―ve mind. It’s making me sink deeper and deeper into her world.
Flipping through the pages I stopped on a page which had yesterday’s Date on it.
‘I don’t know what to feel’
‘A lot has happened in these past 5 months. My life is just getting more and more confusing which makes everything harder. But what I have realised is that when you have such amazing people around you, you don’t need anything else. They make you feel loved and make you feel like you can do anything.
So, recently I have thought of something, it’s been 2 years since me and BamBam split up. Now that I think about it...it’s enough time for me to move on. He is getting married too and I can’t let myself live in the past anymore. I think I will start dating too.
I think I might like someone, I actually have feelings for him and they are really strong. I know I might be sounding insane but what can I do, he makes me feel things no one has. He makes my heart beat like anything.
He is just so perfect that it drives me insane sometimes. Maybe this is what real love feels like.
I know you might be wondering who this special someone is. Well I won’t tell you right now. I will tell you once I actually confess to him and tell him how much he means to me.
I don’t know when I will confess to him though...Because I seriously don’t have the guts to. Maybe I am just scared to be rejected and for our friendship to be ruined. Even if he doesn’t feel the same...I will always love him, because...
He is more myself than I am, Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are the same...’
She ended it by quoting ‘Wuthering Heights’ and it made my heart beat like crazy. Who could she possibly be talking about? I felt a sting in my chest as I exhaled sharply closing the journal and putting it back in its place. I felt jealous and I felt the pain in my heart increase. I shook my head not trying to think negatively.
Just then I heard the sound of footsteps approaching me as I moved away from the dresser so that there is no suspicion.
Y/N: Are you ready yet?
I heard her voice from the other side of the door and I responded with a ‘yes’ as I made my way out of the room.
As I stepped out I saw Y/N’s back facing me as she stood in the living room going through her phone.
Jimin: Hey lets go-
I stopped as she turned around and I felt my breath hitch as I scanned her up and down.
She was looking breathtaking. I couldn’t take my eyes off of her. How can someone look so beautiful?
Y/N: Why are you looking at me like that? Is it that bad?
She asked as she looked at herself all around.
Jimin: You J-Just l-look-
Y/N: I should change shouldn’t I? Well I am just going to change Okay, I won’t take much time.
She said and turned around but I held her wrist turning her again to face me as I pulled her close.
Jimin: No, don’t...you look beautiful...really.
I said and I saw her cheeks turn red which made me chuckle.
Y/N: R-Really? Y-You think I l-look good?
Jimin: You look so good that I am questioning whether I am in heaven...
I spoke and I saw her cheeks turning redder and she looked away from me.
Y/N: You are such flirt.
She said as she stepped away from me and I laughed as I held my hand out in front of her.
Jimin: Shall we?
I asked and she placed her hand in mine with a smile as big as mine.
Y/N: Let’s do this...
She spoke as we both headed to my 23rd birthday party...
To Be Continued...
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I updated with the next chapter already and I will be posting chapter 36 next week maybe...
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